Working, while it has been freeing has also been really hard. I tried not coming home on my lunch breaks since Maggie has been doing really well on the formula when I'm not there so all it did was upset her when I left again. Then, a few days ago I realized that I was getting depressed in the afternoons and especially depressed if anyone came in with a small child. I miss her so much. It really feels wrong to me to be away from her for such a large chunk of the day. I get home at 6ish and have two or three hours with her before she goes to sleep, that is just not enough. How do people deal with it? I need more than two days a week with my little girl. I have already mentioned that I feel like I'm missing so much. How does Matt deal with only having one day a week? He works so much. I feel bad moving us farther away from his work. He does leave before we wake up though. That gives him some extra time with her before I get home and that actually seems to be enough for him. I was spoiled for eight months. Now I have to deal with the reality of not having enough time with her. Maybe there is some way to work out a part time deal. Maybe I could find a job at which I work four days and make enough for us to pay our bills. I'm sorry you don't need to listen to me whine. That is where I am at right now though.

I need to get back on the ball and take some pictures. Maggie looks ultra cute with her two top teeth coming in. I am sorry about not being able to make it to visit people more. We really want to make it various places to see everyone.

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Maggie got two more teeth today!! One of them may have actually come in yesterday, but I'm not sure. Katherine noticed them. I tried to look in her mouth yesterday as she was being fussy and I thought maybe, but she wouldn't let me look. One of them you can see the bottom all the way across and the other one is just peeking out. Ahhh... see, I'm missing things by being away. I know it's good for me, and I do like it, but at the same time it's really hard. Maybe after a little while I can start my website and do both. For now though the daily grind will have to suffice in order to pay the bills.

I really love the warm fuzzy feeling that I get from cloth diapering Maggie. I just had to go through a whole week of putting her in disposables while I waited to get new diaper covers that fit and it made me sad. I wish that I could buy a bunch of bumGenius! diapers at Cotton Babies. They are definitely the best diaper out there. I have one, but they are a little steep in price for me right now. Now that I'm working though, we should be able to get some in the near future! BumGenius are a one size pocket diaper, this means that the same diaper will fit from birth to potty trained! I know it will save me money in the long run, and since there are no prefolds involved it is much easier for traveling and childcare! Check them out using the link I made above, they are really neat!

I'm back to work, doing full time even though that was not my intention. Someone quit the day after I started and so... boom there I was with full time hours. Maggie has been having a lot of fun playing with Christopher all day long now that Katherine is watching her. I have been coming home on my lunch breaks to feed her and she seems to be ok. Last night I couldn't get her to go back to sleep when she woke up at 11:00 like I had been and I was so exhausted I gave up and brought her to bed. Hopefully that isn't the start of a pattern. We're settled into our house and have all the essentials out. Now, we just have to find places for everything else.
Katherine told Matt that Maggie stood on her own for a few seconds yesterday. Every day she is making progress, getting more and more mobile. I'm upset that since I'm working now I will miss firsts of hers. I want to share everything with her.
I thought it would be harder to go back to work, but it seems right. She's not having too hard a time so I don't get upset about being gone when I get home. And, since I am working at Rite Aid where I am familiar with the work I don't have to learn anything new. It feels a little like going back in time and while I am there it seems almost odd that I am married and have a child.